Tragedy

You know - I love facebook. I love being able to keep up with peeps from home and friends and family and let others keep up with me. I log on several times a day, as it is my only source of communication with most people. Yesterday I took about an hour nap and after I woke up I was reading through some updates and I saw a post that made my heart drop. I immediately called to my husband and we tried to make sense out of it and put pieces together. When I came up still unsure of what I was seeing, I made a phone call which confirmed the devastating news among our church family where we served at during Bible College.

Johnny and his wife Tana were saved a few years ago and served the Lord faithfully at Tabernacle BC in Arlington. They have 3 children.... and now those children are left with out a mother. There was a shooting spree which left 3 people dead. Johnny was shot in the neck- but alive and his sister was also murdered along with her friend. She had 5 children. Her children are left with out a mother. Her husband is responsible for the massacre.

My heart is broken. I feel sick every time I think about it. I think of these children who heard their parents murdered. I think of them running to see what was happening and seeing their moms bleeding on the ground. I wonder how does one recover from that?

I am struggling with this. I know there has to be a reason. That's what everyone says. I just don't understand the will of 8 children left with out a mother. I just don't understand the many lives shattered through this senseless crime. I just don't understand why God would allow this to happen. I know it's not for me to question and I also know feathers get ruffled and high horses are mounted when some stop and question God, but I do and I am not afraid to say so.

God knows my hearts intent isn't to be malicious in questioning. I am sincerely bothered by it, and I may never know the reason- but I do know that there is an entire clan hurting beyond words tonight. There is a little church in Texas who lost 2 young mothers. There are 8 children ranging in ages from 12-1 who have to bury their aunt and their mother. There is a father who has to raise 3 small children by himself. There are 5 other children who don't have dad and now mom is longer here. What will happen to them? There is a Pastor who has to try to answer the "WHY" question. Pray with me. Pray for the Todd/ King families. Pray for these precious children. Pray for Johnny the lone survivor in the rampage. Pray for TBC. Oh my soul- please just pray.