Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Diapers needed...

No, I am not announcing the birth of another child for I have my hands full with my 3 already. Seriously, I have a 16 year old(in 4 days), and almost 14 year old and an 11 year old but lately you would think that was months instead of years! They argue and whine and act worse than they did when they were toddlers and I am ready to find the tallest bridge in Croatia and take the plunge. I can't figure out where I went wrong in the course of life, but I miss the days when they were obedient the FIRST time, they answered me with "yes, maam" and when I said No, Stop, that's it or any other catch phrase they immediately obeyed. Now there is a "but mom......" and the last word and I find myself repeating myself 3 or 4 times like I am talking to the air, before the anger builds up and I explode in a fury. I would never win a "Mother of the Year" trophy that's for sure. I am not even going down the school road again because it's redundant. Lately I feel like the only thing I actually succeed in is failing. How's that for idiosyncrasy?

It's so frustrating and another added straw on my already loaded down back. The single hay straw by itself weighs nothing and you hardly know it is there, however, as you add more and more piled high on top of one another its hard to not notice they are there. Then comes the wonder of how long until the one that is placed that will be the one to break you?

I sure hope God is getting ready to do something GIGANTIC in our lives or our ministry here because the devil is on the prowl working overtime in this home. I sure hate him. Hate his stinking guts but I know God is bigger and better and has the answers and the grace I need...and a few extra prayers won't hurt either :)


Anonymous said...

Wow!! That strikes close to home! I wonder if all our training in our kids go down the drain when they reach a certain age. I would not win the mother of the year trophy either and especially not this week. :)
In my devotions yesterday, I finally just prayed for myself and myself only, it was that bad. I felt better after asking for forgiveness and help and today has been better. Take care lady!


Tori said...

Hey Girl,
First of all:
There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

Hey you can deal with this. If it makes you feel any better, I'm fighting the same battle with my kids. I think it's all the TEEN sickness. There is hope, don't give up.
You know that with the Lord's help that hypothetical straw is just that, hypothetical. There is no breaking point. Don't forget:

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

That sure sounds like truth to me.
You know as my kids get older I have often thought that their lives are in their hands. They have the ultimate decision of deciding their future. Regardless of what they decide they will be gone one day and it will be Johnny and I and we will still have a ministry. No way in the world that I'm gonna let my kiddos take that from me. Not that you are even considering that but just remember, He is faithful that called you. He knows just where you are and what you need.

If you don't allow yourself to have a breaking point then you'll never reach that point.

I'm praying for you, hang in there. It could be so much worse! Maybe take a little time and count all the blessings and good things about your kids and how lucky we are that they aren't like we were! Wheew! Sure am glad for that!

Love ya Girlly!!