No, I am not announcing the birth of another child for I have my hands full with my 3 already. Seriously, I have a 16 year old(in 4 days), and almost 14 year old and an 11 year old but lately you would think that was months instead of years! They argue and whine and act worse than they did when they were toddlers and I am ready to find the tallest bridge in Croatia and take the plunge. I can't figure out where I went wrong in the course of life, but I miss the days when they were obedient the FIRST time, they answered me with "yes, maam" and when I said No, Stop, that's it or any other catch phrase they immediately obeyed. Now there is a "but mom......" and the last word and I find myself repeating myself 3 or 4 times like I am talking to the air, before the anger builds up and I explode in a fury. I would never win a "Mother of the Year" trophy that's for sure. I am not even going down the school road again because it's redundant. Lately I feel like the only thing I actually succeed in is failing. How's that for idiosyncrasy?
It's so frustrating and another added straw on my already loaded down back. The single hay straw by itself weighs nothing and you hardly know it is there, however, as you add more and more piled high on top of one another its hard to not notice they are there. Then comes the wonder of how long until the one that is placed that will be the one to break you?
I sure hope God is getting ready to do something GIGANTIC in our lives or our ministry here because the devil is on the prowl working overtime in this home. I sure hate him. Hate his stinking guts but I know God is bigger and better and has the answers and the grace I need...and a few extra prayers won't hurt either :)