Homeschool Blues

Perhaps at some point in every girl's life they want to grow up and be a teacher. Maybe they play school with siblings or stuffed animals. And maybe the thought of a classroom full of excited kids who learn from them would be so rewarding. We all know the patient, crafty, got-it-all-together super teacher mom who has every challenge already 'in the bag'. Oh, how I envy those kind! Not this girl. That was never a desire of mine and I never entertained the thought of being a teacher- let alone a homeschool mom! To be honest the thought of it would make me shudder. Fast forward 25 years and we clearly see the Lord has quite a sense of humor. I, however, fail to find it funny. :)

We do have a schedule I keep to, but other than that, it is a endless headache from 8-2 daily!

I have tried sooo many different ways to make it work for me and I still have yet to come up with the solution. I feel like I am failing and at some point everyday I lock myself in a room and cry. It is no wonder when the alarm goes off in the morning, I wish I could stay in bed til dinner time. I want this time to be special and memorable for my kids, but I fear they will grow up remembering that crazy madwoman of a monster teacher mom. No doubt some nights they have nightmares about the day. Ok, maybe I am exaggerating, but somedays I feel like it's a nightmare and I want to pinch myself to wake up and I realize this is reality.

People say "make the best of it", "do what works for you", "make it fun". BLAH BLAH BLAH! Yep- that's all I hear lately cause I am at the end of my rope and have tried to make the best out of it, and tried to make it fun and what works for me would be to have summer vacation ALL year long! But all thats not going to make them learn and it is not going to get the work done.

Anyway, thats my rant for today. I feel slightly better. No, I don't- I'm lying. But it would be nice to know I am not alone. I know not all days are bad but for some reason they are the ones I let get me down, instead of letting the good days bring me joy. Still, at the end of the night when my precious kids are asleep and I thank the Lord for the day I am grateful I can homeschool my kids. I am grateful I have control of what they are learning and the influences around them. I am grateful for the freedom to teach them and raise them in the admonition of the Lord.

So I found this cartoon and it about sums it up...especially the last box. Your family is right where they ought to be...home.

I couldn't make this picture bigger but lo and behold

when I clicked on it , it got bigger. It takes me awhile to figure these things out :)

Once Upon a Time...

Well with this blog titled, "far, far away" and the "happily ever after" catch phrase brilliantly stuck in there, how else would I begin my blog except with 'once upon a time'?? But I am really not going tell you all about that once upon a time... cause then I would have to kill ya. :)

I have tried blogging once before but could never get my page look the way I wanted it to, so I grew frustrated and gave up. (Yeah that's a downfall of mine.) Anyway with the generous helping hand of my talented (and way too creative) precious friend, Tori I love the look and am ready to go. Problem now is I only have 1 follower. Pretty sad, I know.

My kids tell me I am way random-, I think I have so much going on in this head of mine that I tend to spit things out that aren't all the way thought through and as they laugh at me, I really wish life had a rewind button. I assume my blog will be pretty haphazard as well- anything from a cool sewing project (which is the newest of my want-a-be abilities), to a fabulous new recipe that I am dying to share- a song that has touched my heart, to wanting to throw myself out of my 2 -story window cause homeschooling will in fact be the death of me!! And any interesting tidbit in between will most likely highlight each post.

I saw a sticker once that read 'My knight in shining armor turned out to be a dork in aluminum foil' and it really made me laugh out loud. I am so thankful there isn't any foil on my knight in shining armor! My husband, Scott, is my Prince Charming and I just thank the Lord for him. My children-- I sometimes wish I had a dungeon to lock them in, they complete me. My life is not at all what I had planned, but it is so much more that I ever dreamed of or could have hoped for and I am blessed. God is so good.